Can not Like You Want

 
I know you want something like that, not like this. I know you wish you were right, not to the left. I know you want a small, not big. I know you want a black, not white. I also know you want to eat, not want to drink.
I know all you want, but I can not be one that you want.
Never mind all desires, one might I can not.
Forgive me yeah...

If I did not love myself, then who will?

Me is me and I was myself. When I felt that nobody loved me, I must still love myself.


Because I would feel more devastated if I feel unloved when even I did not love myself.
 
I want to be the soul of the most love myself, not others who find it more important to love myself. I want to love myself more than anyone.
 
So, when there is someone who I expect to love me but he did not, I can still feel happy and not the slightest lack of love for me.
 
I have to remain confident that one day there will be love someone who can accompany and complement my love.

I admire you, but you never know this

You know what??
I admire you for a long time. I wish you a long time. I hope you too long.
In the past until now, I'm still smart to hide all my admiration well. Oh so smart I am ... hehehe
 
But ..
 
Every time I realize that my admiration to you really can not be avenged, at that moment I got a ban for not stopping admire.
Huft .. I'm so confused.
 
 Should I follow my brain that said that I should forget you?
or ..
Should I follow the restrictions that come through my dream to stay admire you because I will receive the reward of my hope for this?
Hmm ...
Actually, the dream was about?
What just ride through?
or is an omen?
Sometimes I feel that dream to give a signal similar to what I'm discussing.
Is it just coincidence?
or .. It's because I'm too thought of it before?
Oh .. too difficult to explain what it was a dream ..

So what should I do now to keep admire you without the slightest hurt me?

Trying to stay happy

I know that now I'm not completely happy, but I always tried to entertain myself. hehehe

Either way I'm trying to forget my sadness for a moment. With a laugh with my close friends, gathered together with them, although often I am ashamed to share stories about the grief that is how I feel.

Many things I can not. Although I know, God did not forever silent. I believe, one day I could feel what I've dreamed of.

 

Especially right now I'm feeling the name of love unrequited. It's sad if it continues to be remembered ...

He wanted to return to the past when I was still with him. At the moment I can still look at him up close, hear her voice instantly, and hear all the story as before. hupt ...

But I began to realize, I can not go on like this. I have to keep moving forward with everything that I have. I still believe that God would give me such a gift terindahnya that I need and want.

I always, always, and always dear God ... :)

Misterious 2011

2011..
berharap aku bakal lebih mencintai hidupku di tahun ini.
berharap orang-orang di sekitarku semakin mencintai aku.